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Let’s talk about our feelings..

31 August, 2010

Actually, I’m just going to talk about my feelings.  If you want to make yours known, kindly leave a comment.

With almost everyone who I have talked to about my upcoming Fulbright adventures, I have been asked how I’m feeling about it, if I’m nervous, or if I’m excited.

The idea of packing up my things and heading off to a foreign land has always appealed to me; if I wasn’t game for it, I would not have applied for my grant.  And now that I’m counting down the hours until my departure (about 110, if you wanted to know), I can say that I have experienced a really broad range of emotions.

Above all else, I am excited!  I have yet to set foot on the African continent, and I have never been away from home for longer than two months.  I’m looking forward to all of the new things I will see and do, the new people I will be meeting, and the experience, both life and professional, that I will be gaining.

I feel extremely blessed to be on the receiving end of my grant, and I am grateful to everyone who has helped me get there.  Chances are that if you are reading this, you have helped me get here in some way.  I wouldn’t be who I am without the love and support of my family and friends.  Thanks guys!

Naturally, I’m a wee bit sad that I’ll have to be away from family and friends, but I know the time will go by fast.  Skype, emails, and hopefully some visits from you all will help to minimize any homesickness I will likely encounter.  While at orientation, one of our sessions talked about the various stages we will go through while adjusting to life in a new land.  I know it’ll happen, but I’m not overly concerned about it.

I’ve had moments where I’ve been frustrated with various aspects of the process, and I’m sure that will continue throughout the next ten months.  We were told to toss our expectations and to bring lots and lots of patience, and I’ll be doing this to the best of my ability.

I’m also somewhat worried about a few things, but I know that sitting and worrying about it is not going to help anything, so I’m acknowledging the worries, doing everything I can to prepare for whatever it is, and moving on.  With both worries and frustrations, I think holding onto them will only hold me down.

Aside from having to spend way too many hours inside a metal tube in the sky, I’m not fearing much about either my move to Morocco, or the thought of living there for ten months.  However, when I stumble across my first camel spider or scorpion, I may have to retract this paragraph.  Hopefully, I’ll be able to stop reacting to it quickly and get a few good pictures.

Oh yeah, and I’m feeling quite full from yet another “last supper” out with friends.  Tonight took us to Pilsen for some tasty Mexican food.  In the past week, I have likely gained ten pounds trying to get my fix for all sorts of things I won’t be able to find as easily as in Chicago.

In other news:

–      One of the folks from my cohort will not be going to Morocco, so we are down to nine people now.  I’m not sure the circumstances surrounding his decision to not go, but whatever it is, I hope he is doing okay.  He’s a really nice guy, and I’m bummed he won’t be with us.

–      I am about 80% finished packing my suitcases, and am 75% finished packing my educational materials that will be shipped over via embassy pouch.  I have a feeling that I am over packing, but I’m okay with that.

–      I still have an intimidating to-do list, but it’ll get done.  It has to, right?

–      I had dinner at a Moroccan restaurant last week and had the most delicious pastry for dessert.  Its called knafeh, and I am looking forward to eating more of it in the future.

One Comment leave one →
  1. Jen permalink
    1 September, 2010 16:12

    Well…MY feelings are that I’m going to miss you dearly. However, you’re a traveling soul and always have been, so Morocco better be prepared to fall in love with you. America couldn’t ask for a better ambassador.

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